My big jump into big internet blog life. But hey, I don’t have a twitter yet so there’s no crime done. Anyway I guess I decided to get this for a variety of reasons. To let the people that I want to share things with see it, to vent aimlessly, post things I find interesting and to share my overflowing curiosity with the world.
Introductions out of the way, lets get down to it eh? Simple introduction, I’m stuck in a podunk little town going to college at a school I shouldn’t be at, wasting money with nothing in mind to study. In doing this, I’ve left the four or five most important people in my life behind and I’m constantly worried that I’ll never make bonds with people here that way. College is the wrong place for me, completely. My dreams and goals don’t really require a college education at all. All I want in life is to have a small income job that can sustain day to day needs whilst living in a small house in a rural area with a few people that I don’t mind spending many years with. Oh and that future should contain kittens.
Onto my new world in the east. College…is different. I don’t much care to live in a dorm, I enjoy a solitary lifestyle unless I’m around people I have a deep connection with. It’s weird living at the same place I go to school. Feels like a prison I’m allowed to leave. I don’t do much, I’m not into the part bro lifestyle or anything. Most of the time I sit on the computer listening to music and finding random things on the internet. This or the occasional class or study break is about all I have time for these days. I don’t plan on being here for long, well if I have my say in it. I plan to move back home next semester and go to CC to pursue some kind of dietary career. After that I want to join americorps and get my college paid for and attend UW and get a degree in E Sci.
I try to go home as much as possible to see the people I love, and recently I found it really hard when I got back. I sank into a depressive state and found myself really lonely and upset at myself for alot of things. I feel like I’m losing touch gradually with the people I love and that soon, they’re gonna forget about me.
This is about all I can muster out of my brain for the day. Big test to study for, hopefully I’ll come out with a 70+ on it.
This song is by Matthew Robert Cooper AKA Eluvium, it’s what I’ve been listening to a lot lately.
I’ll never forget you! I’m gonna keep track of this too.
Love, your adopted sistah